"We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I will love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you'll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there's still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. You will remember having conversations with this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual trysts with this person that never technically occured. This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not really exist. The person is real, and the feelings are real- but you create the context. And context is everything. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."

-Chuck Klosterman

The Zombie Survival Test

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Q: is this shot gonna  hurt, doctor?

A: only if god hates you.

haha, robot chicken is hilarious. last week i saw sin city with amanda and kevin. sin city was one of the sexiest movies ive seen in a while. but it was just great to see amanda and kevin agian, amanda and kevin are actually two of my oldest friends, only my bandmates have i known for just as long. so them being old friends it makes me happy to see them in a happy relationship together. amanda is beatiful and so is kevin, so it should work that way. i may start jamming with kevin, which i think would lean more to indie rock, but with that southern flavor that we would naturally put in it. it could be fun.

p.s. roy is probably my best gal pal, but we've only been friends since 10th grade, so thats why he didnt make the oldest friends list, even though roy is one of my oldest friends.

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i think daily minefield is done, which even though nothing had been done with it in months, it took me a few days to get over. i allready miss playing with kevin and andrew, just the freshness of it all. we havent played a show in the last year, but lately i thought we were going to try to bring it back. i hope we can stay friends after this break up, because the sex was great. i am wierd i know.

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